I've lost my loved one a couple of weeks ago. I'm still feeling sad and in fact, I'm weeping right now while completing this blog.
We have been spending our live together for more than 10 years now. And her death was so... sudden to me. I still remember the day when we met, she was so cute,so innocent and yet so adorable. We called her Yuki, but later i prefer to call her Yuk,adding some Asian touch to it's name. We had great times ever since, we were playing and having fun together. We walked at the park almost every evening. She was playful but obedient. Oh, did i mentioned that she liked to dress up too, especially in pink dresses, and she looked so cute in one.
Time passed and our bond grew closer.
Lately, because of work, I travel far away from home. But every time I reach home, she seems like always be there waiting patiently but silently for my return, waiting for me to give her nice pat , a nice stoke at the back, or a good rub on her belly. Waiting for me to bring her out, but only to follow me behind closely, exploring the world on her own. She was small in size but fierce and brave, and not afraid to stand up to guys several times bigger than her.
She hurt me once for I did something foolish. And the scar is still clearly visible on my left arm. Maybe the imprint will remind me of her for the rest of my life.
She was sick and I took her to the doctor but maybe it was too late. I'm angry with myself for not have noticed it earlier, I should have be more observant. And now I regret it, and I regret dearly for not taking her to the doctor sooner. I still remember her helpless expression when i carried her into the x-ray room. I went to the temple, pray to the Gods for her recovery,but I think they have decided to take her back. She was not eating after that and passed away 2 days later on 9th Jan 2011. I hold back my tears..... But when I'm alone in the middle of the night and when images of her cross my mind, it seems that my tears duct is beyond my control.
Not far from her home, we buried her together with her toys in her favorite pink dress.
Yuk rest in peace as you are always, always our guardian angel.
I wrote a short Cantonese poem for her,
生无常
死别更无常
漫路长
痛非常
思念更漫长
Life and death Is very unpredictable,
You have left us, we are in pain, and miss you very much.
花开不常
舞蝶依飞翔
情再断肠
不问天长
你我化蝶梦里飞翔
You are a flower that's no longer in blossom but dying. I'm like a butterfly that will keep on flying encircling around you hoping one day we'll meet again,
I'll call it forever as long as we have each other. Perhaps we will meet again passionately in the dreams
Life is fragile and unpredictable, express your love before it is too late.
